I had a dream..........

The other day Alice and Zoe were singing along to the song “I had a dream…” in the movie Tangled.

Alice: What is your dream Zoe?

Zoe: to have a wobbly tooth (gorgeous!)

Zoe: What is your dream Alice?

Alice: actually, I had a BAD dream that Lucy turned into a monster (chuckle)

Zoe: What is your dream mum?

Me: Oh…..to go overseas

Zoe: But you’ve already done that.

It was a gorgeous conversation but it got me thinking what IS my dream? Have I lost my own dreams? Then I was quick to realise that I was LIVING my dream. Loving husband, beautiful healthy children, our own home in the hills….(I wish I was quick to respond to Zoe with that one).

But really, I am a Pisces. I am always dreaming. That is what is causing me some inner turmoil. Being a mum is a dream and one that I rank very highly and would never change…

I have dreams, lots of them.  A lot of them I can’t act on right now. It’s all too hard to fit my dreams and goals into family life. I know you should live in the now, but I do have a nagging feeling that I won’t be able to act on my dreams in a few years when the kids are at school, or when we have more money.   

 I would love to try any of the following career paths:

Midwifery

MCHN

RDNS

School nursing

Teaching

Psychology

Physiotherapy

Osteopathy

Having a B&B with:

a) my own café

b) wellness workshop/guided walks

c) mediation/guided imagery facilitation

I also wonder about nursing. At the moment I know that I need a break from working with sick children. I love nursing though, meeting families, reassuring them, being able to help them, teaching them and listening to them. I also like the professionalism and the respect that nurses get. I will always feel at ease with the human body and medicine. I am not ready to let all my training and experience go down the drain. It has been a long time since I worked on the wards. An even longer time since I nursed adults. I feel like I have narrowed down my options with paediatric community nursing. It doesn’t help that I live an hour away from the major metropolitan hospitals. I feel like that I will need to study in a specialist area to change nursing directions. When can I do this? When is it the right time with young kids??

Marcus suggests I just go for a job in a new area. Don’t like my chances. Why would they give the job to me?? All things that keep buzzing in my head…

I need to take baby steps I know, in doing little things (or short courses) that keep me interested and feel like I am “growing” personally outside of motherhood.

Some areas of interest are (mini dreams I suppose you could say):

Doing a drumming course

Doing regular yoga

Immunisation course

School nurse course – not sure whether you have to have a job in the area first?

Infant massage instructor course

Pregnancy massage course

Doing some workshops at the local community house

Doing some volunteer work

Getting some chooks

Building a billycart

Getting my garden in order

What are your dreams????  Does being a mother affect your dreams and goals??